Your 20's. The new age for a mid life "crisis".
In conclusion, 2013 is gonna bring CHANGE.


"Goodbye 2011! You were the WORSE year EVER!!" Those were my EXACT words when bringing in 2012, and 2012 has been a roller coaster of emotions. One of my friends "broke up with me", I quit a job working for another friend, gained a few friends, found out who was fraud and who was real. I lost a sister-in-law and decided to start seeing a therapist. I had a lot of emotions weighing me down. 

But, through all that, I also discovered, or re-discovered, my relationship with GOD, found out what REAL love is and got a new job that will kick start my career. I recently read somewhere that “If you continue doing the same things, you will get the same results.” I have grown wiser and smarter and in 2013 I have decided that I am going to take more risk, push myself harder, and finally, MOVE out of Seattle. In 2013 I will be closer to my boyfriend, find an amazing career, and live my life the way I want. 

Lots of BIG changes in 2013. Jesus, take the wheel. Here we go! 

Summary Of The NyTimes Article On Beyoncé.


  • She will tour in 2013.
  • New music is happening within the next 6 weeks or so.
  • Her untitled album will be out in the first quarter.
  • She will star in a new Pepsi ad airing after the Superbowl.
  • Pepsi and Beyoncé agreed on a $50 million deal to promote her new era.
  • Beyoncé is the reason the Earth spins.
  • Blue Ivy is set for life and so are her great, great grandchildren.
  • Your fave better get her shit out the way by February. 


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eye. ron. ee.

It’s nice to know Kim gets pissed. 


eye. ron. ee.

It’s nice to know Kim gets pissed. 

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I’m done.

That’s my B! Lafayette!

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Without further introduction: New York City

Ever heard of a place, never been there, but just *KNOW* that’s where you belong? That’s NYC for me. I have never been to this beautiful, crowded, rat infested, and great city but I have seen enough HBO series, based in New York (SATC, Girls, Boardwalk Empire, and How to make it in America), to know that it is place I want more in my life.

Here are the facts:

#FACT: This will be my FIRST time visiting.

#FACT: I will not look, or act, like a visitor or tourist.

#FACT: I am both nervous and excited to go. (The news plays a sort of big part in my nervousness).

There are so many things I want to do but I don’t enjoy being a tourist when I go on vacation. If their is one thing that I have learned from a friend of mine (who is a world traveler) DONT BE A TOURIST. I mean, don’t try to walk around like you know the city either, but definitely don’t walk around with a camera permanently attached to your hand taking pictures infront of the Empire State Building.

I know I won’t be able to see, and do, everything while I’m there so I have come up with my TOP 5 things I want to do while in NYC:

1) Explore Brooklyn. This is the home of Notorious BIG. King HOVIE. It’s only fair I see where greatness comes from.

2) Bottomless mimosas. Mission Accomplished. (Of course I was going to thoroughly search this).

3) YES MAN! (or WOMAN). Unless it involves going off with creepy strangers, or it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable, the plan is to say YES to everything. You know, like Jim Carrey in ‘Yes, man’. Get? Cmon?!

4) Be sort of a tourist. Visit: Time Square, Empire State Building, Ground Zero and get my ‘SATC’ on.

5) See DJ Clue spin. I’m very serious about this by the way.

My time will be limited, so I know I won’t get to see everything. I’m just ready to turn 25 in the concrete jungle where dreams are made of.

25 Things I’ve Learned In My 20s

ALL of these pertain to my life. #4.

  1. You can’t date a jerk and expect to turn them into a good person. Jerks are fully committed to being unpleasant. Those brief moments of tenderness they give you are designed to trip you up and give you false hope. It’s best to stay away altogether.
  2. The rumors are true: your metabolism does slow down as you get older! That means if you’re still eating whatever you want, there’s a good chance you’ll start to gain an awkward amount of weight. It won’t be too drastic but your clothes will start to hang differently on your body and you’ll feel an overall feeling of unattractiveness. Start to be conscious of what you eat and strive to live a healthier lifestyle if you want to get your teen body back. (Let’s be real though, that might not ever come back.)
  3. You’re going to lose touch with a lot of your friends. With some people, it will be expected but with others it will feel like a punch to the stomach. No friendship is truly safe in your twenties. You’re undergoing so many personal and professional changes that there’s bound to be some casualties along the way. Don’t worry though. You’ll end up with the ones that matter. If someone’s no longer in your life, it’s for a reason.
  4. You’ll be jealous of everyone who’s more successful than you. That’s okay. Just transfer that jealousy into something productive, like working really hard so you can one day eclipse them and make them feel jealous of YOU.
  5. You’ll question every decision you make and never feel completely certain that you made the right choice. It’s pointless to wonder though. You’re here now so you might as well make it be the right decision.
  6. You’re going to give your heart to a few people who don’t deserve it. Then, one day you’ll come to your senses and ask them to give it back.
  7. You’ll see your parents get older. You’ll come home during Christmas break and see new lines developing on their faces. One day it’ll just hit you that your parents are old and going to die. There’s nothing you can do about it, besides treat them with kindness and visit as much as your budget permits.
  8. You’ll have a boss who makes you feel like you’re nothing. It doesn’t have to be in a Devil Wears Prada way. The cruelty can be much more subtle. Don’t let them get to you though. They have no idea who the hell you really are and you’re probably going to have their job someday so…
  9. Doing drugs is fun until it’s not, until it starts affecting your life in negative ways and leaves you feeling guilty and wrecked. If that happens, you should stop doing them.
  10. You’re going to puke in public. It’s fine. No one cares. Just puke.
  11. You’ll know how to make twenty dollars last an entire week because you spent almost all of your paycheck on groceries at Whole Foods and drunk cab rides. This lesson in frugality will serve you well.
  12. You’re going to betray your convictions. You’re going to feel shame. You’re going to continue to put yourself in situations that aren’t good for you. And then, slowly but surely, it will become less frequent. It might not ever go away completely but it won’t be as bad. In the meantime, stop shame spiraling about it. It gets you nowhere.
  13. Loving yourself is hard. Hating yourself is harder.
  14. You’re going to hook up with someone who you would never touch in the daylight sober. Just don’t freak out too much about it. Consider it to be your good deed for the day.
  15. You’re going to have people in your life who are toxic. They may say that they love you, they may say that they have your back, but they don’t. Get rid of them.
  16. You’ll have moments with someone that are so intense, it’ll feel like you’ve been electrocuted back to life. You’ll hold on to these moments for a long time. They’ll give you hope when you’re going through the motions.
  17. You’ll always care about your first love. That doesn’t make you crazy, it just makes you human. When relationships end, it’s not so cut and dry. You carry everyone you’ve ever loved into every relationship thereafter.
  18. You’ll enter your twenties as a fashion disaster and (hopefully) leave them looking fantastic. If you don’t know how to put yourself together by then, I really don’t know what to tell you.
  19. You’ll realize that the Internet can be a cruel son of a bitch but, you know,
  20. So much of what you think matters doesn’t actually matter at all. It’s kind of rude. Like, thanks for making me believe in things that are ultimately so inconsequential, you jerk.
  21. You’ll treat someone terribly. Whether it to be a lover or your friend, there’ll be someone whose feelings you take for granted. We focus too much on whether or not someone is hurting us. The reality is that we might actually be the one who’s hurting someone.
  22. Doing “grown-up things” doesn’t make you a grown up. Shopping for housewares, buying a plant, embracing domesticity — these things don’t create maturity. If you’re still a baby who hasn’t figured things out, you’ll remain a baby, no matter how many times you pay your rent on time.
  23. Don’t force yourself into loving anyone. If it’s not working in the beginning, it’s probably not going to work ever.
  24. You are so lucky to have everything that you have. Stop crying about an unreturned text message and get some perspective.
  25. Don’t go too long without having sex. Ever. TC mark
Are you there God? It’s me and I have questions.

I wonder what Joan Osborne’s purpose was for writing the song ”One of Us”? Did she really want to know how God would react to real human problems? Or did she think religion was a hot button issue at the time and decide to make fun? Either way, I’m pretty sure, now-a-days, Joan isn’t the only one asking: What if God was one of us? I mean, does God ever feel helpless? or lost? Does God ever feel like he’s tired of sending off resumes because he knows he’s just going to get an email back saying he’s not qualified enough? And who would God pray to when he was at the end of his rope? 

If I could spend just 10 minutes with God I would ask him: What’s my purpose in life? And lastly, why do I feel so unaccomplished?

I had a life plan that was supposed to read like the beginnings of a great MTV reality show. It was to be shot in LA and it was going to be great. But, the thing about reality is it never pans out the way you want it to. Lately, I have had a horrible case of FOMO. Constantly, I find myself wishing that I could travel more or that I lived in a different city or country. I’m not even sure what I want to do with my life anymore.

I imagined myself being a shark of a publicist like Olivia Pope but I don’t know about that anymore. I still have goals and dreams and a lot of things I want to accomplish but the constant rejection starts to wear down on you after a while.



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